“I willingly abased myself by
begging you not to leave and to do right by me,
Being deprived of your presence,
made me realize how bad I longed for consistency and how
I spent my time looking for it in the most toxic and overrated places.
You knew I believed you when you told me you wanted to settle,
you temporarily accommodated me with just what I needed…
You sold me dreams,
you made these promises you knew you wouldn’t keep
And for the longest time,
despite the accumulative blows,
I kept hoping you’d change, come back and fix the mess you’d made..
Until, I realized that
I was already accustomed to your absence,
I no longer craved your presence nor anything that had to do with you.”